I am on a journey of self love. I have not always been kind to myself and I have been putting a lot of effort into focusing on all the things in life that bring me joy.
However, I didn’t sleep good last night. And today I am just feeling “blah”.
But I’m telling myself that this is temporary. “It’s not a bad life, just a bad day“. Just because I am over the lowest point in my life, doesn’t mean that every single day is going to be sunshine and rainbows. And that is okay.
Mental health has such a stigma around it. Was I depressed for 4 years? HELL YEAH. Do I still suffer from anxiety? You better believe it! But now that I am able to recognize what I am going through, I want to focus on not allowing it to take over my whole life like it once did.
I am also trying to remind myself that I cannot please everyone. And not everyone is going to be supportive of me. Again, that is OKAY.
I am happy. My kids are happy. That is what matters to me the most.
You want to know what the toughest thing about this blog is and sharing my struggles for the world to see? That means I am vulnerable. And that isn’t easy.
But I have said from the beginning of this, my whole goal here is to normalize struggling. To normalize changing after you become a mom. And to help other moms understand that whatever they are feeling is totally normal.
But the most important thing is that you do your best every single day. You show up for everything in your life that matters.
Am I perfect? No way. Have I made some mistakes along the way (especially in motherhood)? Of course I have! But the only thing that I can focus on right now is this present moment and to make sure every future moment that I have is better than the last.
I’m proud of myself for how far I have come. And some days I am overwhelmed by the support I am receiving from my friends and family who have come on this journey with me.
Other days, it’s easy for me to see that I cannot please everyone. Some people might think what I am doing is silly, or a waste of time, or a waste of my resources. But it took me 33 years to find something that I am truly passionate about. And this is it. And if you don’t like it, then you do not have to follow along.
It feels good to recognize that I am still going to struggle. And that I’m still going to have tough days. But my toughest days are behind me. Whatever my future holds, I am going to make sure I continue to be happy and to feel gratitude on a daily basis. That is the only thing I am in control of, so that is where my energy is going to be placed.